Then Jesus said to his disciples,
"If anyone would come after me, he must first deny himself and
take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life
will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.
( Matt. 16:24 )
God’s Healing Touch
Hello. My name is Jay Rudd and I am writing to share
my testimony of an amazing miracle of healing God has
provided in mine and my families lives. I am 49 years
old and have now been married to my wonderful wife
Dolly, for 27 years.
We live in Columbus, Ohio. Our
two daughters Rachel, and Christy, also live in the
Columbus area. Christy and her husband, Jason have
blessed us with our first granddaughter, Allyson,
and they are expecting our second grandchild
There were many years in our lives when no one would
have believed I would still be alive, or that our family
would become so blessed!
On July 15, 1980 we were working on an oil well that
had just been drilled. A bad leak developed and we
immediately began to shut down the operation.
I was holding a very large pipe wrench on the cap
of the ball injector.
The supervisor swung a 16#
sledge hammer with all his might and missed the pipe
wrench, hitting me on the left side of my forehead. I
suffered a broken nose and brain damage to my left
frontal lobe, although I wouldn’t have the brain
damage actually diagnosed until 1986.
Between 1980 and 1986, my mental, emotional, and
physical health deteriorated to the point that I could
barely walk, talk, or tie my shoes and I tried to commit
suicide for the first of what would become dozens of
attempts. Through a battery of tests, I was diagnosed
with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, & Organic Brain
I was considered mentally retarded and mentally
ill. I developed Bi-Polar Disorder and very bad anger
management problems, as a result of the brain damage.
I began to hear voices, which would tell me what to do
and how to do it.
Each passing year, my health and ability to function
on everyday tasks deteriorated to the point that between
1984 and 1998 I had to be admitted for as much as one
to two months at a time. I would be released for between
two to three weeks on average, and then readmitted for
another month or more.
One day in 1996, my health had deteriorated so badly
that the doctors sent me home with the sobering
news that there was no chance at all of improvement,
and that in fact my health and capacity to live would
only worsen. They told us in essence,
“There is No hope for Jay!”
With that news the doctors sent me home, with orders to
take 20 pills a day. They informed my wife, Dolly that she
needed to seriously consider institutionalizing me for
mine, and her and our children’s sake! Although
confronted with an extremely bleak outlook of a life
and future with her husband, Dolly never gave serious
thought to the possibility of institutionalizing me.
She proudly confronted the doctors with her faith
and belief in God, “With God there is ALWAYS
hope and I will take care of my husband!”
Over the next few years, during the worst periods,
when she left for work, etc she was never able to
know for sure if I would be alive, or dead when she
returned as my suicidal attempts increased in
frequency. No matter what she was forced to
endure, or how much she was hurt by the trials,
or actions, her love for and devotion to me
One night in 1998, my youngest daughter Christy,
who was then only 15, had just laid down to sleep
when I tried to commit suicide by cutting my
wrist with a razor blade. Blood was flowing freely
down my arm and was gushing everywhere.
I walked out of the bathroom at the same
time Christy, happened to come out of
She looked at me with such a serious, hurt, &
betrayed look on her face, that I will never be
able to forget it and said, “Why don’t you love
me anymore? If you really loved me, you wouldn’t
have cut your wrist and tried to kill yourself!”
Trying to cover up what I had done, I covered
my arm as best I could and said, “But I DO
love you Christy! I love you very much!”
I was admitted to the hospital for what would
become both the worst and best hospital stay
of my life. The worst because I realized I had
reached the low point of my life when I had to
have my hands and feet strapped down to the
point I couldn’t move.
I was also isolated and sedated in a padded
cell, so I was no longer a danger, or threat to
myself, or the other patients.
It became the best stay because God used my
wife Dolly, and my daughters Rachel and
Christy, and my love for each of them to show
me that I HAD to make a commitment to
get better for each of their sakes!
Rachel was a little older and being so sensitive,
she really took the brunt of my sometimes
harsh words and actions. Christy had already
been traumatized enough, before having to walk
out unexpectedly and face the additional trauma
of seeing me having tried to kill myself. I was
afraid I was responsible for having ruined
their lives forever!
On July 27, 1999 my daughters and I went to
Forrest Edge Assembly of God, where Lindell Cooley,
from Brownsville Assembly of God, was leading
the Praise and Worship Service. At one point in the
service the Pastor stopped the service to address the
congregation. He went on to explain that God had
revealed to him that there were people in the
congregation that were suffering from
He asked everyone with an incurable illness to come
up to the altar to be prayed for. He said, “There is
a young man here who has been sent home
from the hospital with the news from the doctors
that there is NO hope for you!” My daughters
were so excited! They both said, “Dad, he’s
talking about you!”
I said, “No way! You’re Crazy! He’s talking about
Pastor Ron, who was with us grabbed my arm and
was practically dragging me down the isle.
When I got to the altar I began to bawl like a baby!
Pastor Ron explained to Pastor Randy and
Pastor Lindell what I was suffering from and
had been through and asked them to pray
At the moment they began to pray for me,
God started to heal my brain. It started tingling
and felt like my brain was expanding, and
The years 1999 to 2003 were miracle breaking
years for me as God restored and renewed the
joy and life to my marriage, ended my continual
Hospital stays, and ridded my life of any
He began to restore my self-esteem as a man by
helping me get my drivers license back, and
enabling me to work a little in my Pastor’s auto-body
shop. Although not able to work anywhere
near full-time, it was so satisfying and encouraging
after not being able to work at all for over 16 years.
At a baptismal service at Evangel Temple in Columbus,
God restored my reading ability. Through prayer,
studying, and taking notes I was able to improve
from a Second grade reading level to a Seventh grade
reading level in just two years. This and other miracles
God began to perform in my life absolutely amazed
my doctors who had no answer to the miracles
other than God!
They had told me that I would never be able to go back
to school, or become a Pastor, or Evangelist. My new
doctor has told me that the progress I have made back
to a normal life from the kind of brain damage I had
suffered is unheard of in the Mental Health Profession.
“A person’s emotional problems and medication needs
don’t just “Go away.” He said, “Truly, Jay, this is a
miracle and I can see your faith in God, your family,
and your church are very important to you.”
Most of the doctors and other people in my life
since the accident have made me feel like an
Overwhelming Underdog, but I’ve discovered that
that’s OK, because Jesus loves and uses the
World’s So-Called Underdogs mightily
each and everyday!
With the help of God, my family, my Pastor, and the
congregation at my church, I have now preached
a half dozen sermons, am well into completing
the Berean Bible Courses, and will soon be
submitting the Application for my
I am a member of New Hope Assembly of God
in Groveport, Ohio, am on the Advisory Board
of my church, and am Vice President of
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My wife, Dolly, works at Meier’s and remains my
biggest blessing from God. My oldest daughter
Rachel is in college working towards her RN license,
that she plans to use as a Missionary to Africa.
My daughter Christy is the Praise and Worship Leader
at our church. God has shown me a glimpse of
His glory and made me hunger and strive to see
SO much more!
What is Impossible for Man
possible for God!
The more I learn to
Rely on Him through All Things,
the more He amazes me daily!
No matter what I go through in my life, whether it’s
a pleasant experience or a very intense trial,
I am going to keep on
Praising, Worshipping. and Serving
For He is ALWAYS Worthy to be Praised!
Your Friend and Brother in Christ,
Your Cross Outreach Ministry
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